Having sexual relations with a number of partners on a casual basis.
When I started having sex it was more like catching up since I was seeing it going on during my teenage years but didn’t want to do it. I started when I turned 20 and it opened a door that I wasn’t ready for. I came up in the era when women loved a man in uniform and I was in the Navy. Every time I went out I would wear my uniform and it really attracted a lot of attention. Before I knew it I was involving myself with a lot of women. Then I moved into this apartment complex and when the women found out I was a single man all hell broke loose.
I can honestly say that I have had plenty of sexual encounters and I always felt that I was allowed to do what single people do. I would realize that sex was a downfall in life because I couldn’t get anyone to want me for me. They just wanted me for sex. I knew it was getting bad when the women started seeing who could get me first and they started paying me. It was a good time for me even though I thought they were crazy.
I also could not understand how people didn’t think sex was sex and that is all sex will be. I ran across a few that felt that since I was having sex with them I belonged to them but I didn’t feel that way because I didn’t put any feeling in it. I was doing it for them not me. When I decided to take my life back I had sex with eight women in five days and walked away from that life. Now I have a clearer thought and less stress. I have upset a lot of people by doing this but hell with them.
I knew that they couldn’t find anyone better than me if they kept dealing with me so I had to cut them loose. I hope they find what they are looking for. Personally I know they won’t because there is no one out there better than me. PERIOD ![]()